i will not cry..i..will...not....cry.....

salam,
tonight is the day that i feel so left alone..
i've talking a lot in my mind for all the things that i've done this past days..
spending too much of 'me time' on someone dat hurt me a lot..
its not like he's not suitable, but more towards to please my feelings..

i dont care if he read dis, or comment bout my writing..
rite now, im juz want to fly to Korea and meet my Siwon oppa n all Suju's mmber..
even its juz a wish that will not come true, at least to release a tense environment aroud me..

dear god,
i wont care much if it juz ur test for me who the black grape in ur all slave..
but do let me strong in my heart and gv happiness for my famly n i..
dont take the smile that You put for us..

for now,
i will pretending dat everything is ok..
even its not..
i will make a fake face to please u guys..
even it hurt me most..
i will laugh to cheer the air..
even it will make me more weak inside..

perhaps..
tomorrow will be a better day..
and i will not cry anymore..

i..will..not..cry..anymore..
anymore...........................................

p/s: love is hard when u are too far from me... i wish u culd understand..sarangheayo oppa..

in the mood of SUJU@ SUJU-M

salam
first skali tengku nk mohon maaf kt famly tengku (spatutnya blaja, esok pagi pkol 9 ade exam) tp stil nk tulis kt cni

dengan rase rindu utk pulang ke selatan menemui yg tercinta, tengku tgah mnaip smbil mndgar lagu2 dr Suju-m. oh, ya. klu korang tak tau ape itu suju-m, nnti tengku terangkan di lain post okeh~

bukan per, tengku tgah layan rase terlalu rindu, mcm dlm lirik tu "zhi shao hai yao ni" (atleast there's still you) erm.......mungkin sbb tgah melayan hafalan nota2 smbil mengingati Putera E. haih~~~

ape2pun, tengku nk ucap...tengku sayang dia sgt2....klu2 die bace blog tengku..hrap die sedang tersenyum dan juga merindui tengku

p/s: cant wait to see u there...hold for the moment...saranghaeyo Putera E oppa!

Selangor vs Terengganu

Salam kepada semua pembaca entri tengku. aaa~~ terkejut tak tengok tajuk post kali nie? bukan per, td kawan tengku siap2 nk pg stadium shah alam tgok selangor vs terengganu. agak korangla sape menang ek? klu tye tengku...sah2la selangor. hehehehe

dulu tengku merupakan salah seorang peminat bola selangor. ini disebabkan pengaruh 2 org abg yg mnat sgt kt bola. hehehe~ tp minat tu makin pupus bile tengku masuk skola asrama. sbb tak dan nk pg tgok kt stadium lg..

harap2 kemenangan berpihak kepada selangor. merah kuning lambang kebanggaan!!

p/s: tak tau lagu negeri Johor...xpe2 nnti tengku blaja k. hehehe

Ape yang saya mao sekarang?

Salam, entry kali tepat dimulakan pada jam 145pg. sedang mencari idea ape yg hendak dilakukan. oh,ya. siang td xde final listening mandarin, cume anta CD then bleh balik..hehehe

next, final test intructional communication technology yg diadakn di Lab Foto Fak. Masscomm. 2 1/2 jam mengadap kertas soklan. tp yg tengku tak bleh blah...saat diwaktu mencari kertas test pad utk menjawab soklan tersebut. aduyai~ die tak mo kertas A4 tu...naseb baik tengku ni dilahirkan dgan rase TAK MALU. ^_^ akhirnye tengku berjaya mendapat test pad. hahahaha okla tu kn?

sblom test, tengku ade dgar my class-mate pasang lagu Republik ~ Hanya Ingin Kau Tahu...sedeh lagu tu. tp kan, yg tengku perasan..kawan2 tengku seme macam dalm BAD MOOD. knape ek?

tp tu semua bukanla ape tengku nk sampaikan sebenarnya, bile mnta lagu Republik ni dekat ozmate tengku, tengku tibe2 mao kan sestu. tengku bukanla mengharapkan sgt...cume this nite...tengku maokan bende ini. dengan limpahan warna puteh suci...warna kesukaan tengku, diberikan oleh sesiapa pown di dunia ini tp khas kepada tengku..

maybe korang rase tengku ni typical girl yg nk kn bunger....tp percayala, tengku tak suka kan bunge, tengku cume dpt bunga 2kali dlm hdup tengku. #1, secret admirer kt skola menengah ngn #2 konvokesyen diploma oleh famly. 2 2 bunge tu warna puteh..tengku tak bunge lain selain ros puteh..hehehe demand kn?

ok, diambil dari "1001 falsafah perihal bunga" bunga ros putih: cinta sejati dan kebenaran. hehehe, tengku harap kepada insan yg nk hamek hati tengku nie...bg la ros puteh kt tengku...anda adalah insan ketiga yg mmbrikan kepada tengku selepas my secret admirer (yg tengku tak tahu smpai skrang) dan my famly...tengku sedang mao kan ROS PUTEH...hehehe...

p/s: tengku tak marah kamu Putera E. tengku hanya mao kamu menjaga tengku...selamanya.

Start dah exam

Dalam mencapai azam menjadi orang berguna, minggu ini bermula la minggu 'mengetest' kn kepala otak...huhuhu, dlm mnggu nie je 3 paper final test. tanpa segan silu tengku nk mengaku di sini, tengku tak bace ape2 pown menghadapi test2 tersebut... gila kan? huhuhu

bulan ni jugak tengku ade gado skit ngn Putera E, biasela adat org bercinta...tp, klu slaloo gado pown xla best..btul x? mungkin ade perangai tengku yg kene ubah kot.. yela, sape mao mwe keras kepala...hahahaha~

sekarang berat tengku dh trun kepada berat sblom raya..hehhe~ trimas kepada bngkug hitam ku..tp, the lemaks sudah turun ke bahagian kaki menjadikan kaki saya sgt besar.... (sbb set bengkung tu 1set...tp malas nk pakai yg seluar) nnti ssah nk pg ke toilet..hahahaha~

xperla, tengku cube yg terbaik. lgpon tengku hdup cume sekali...kene la menikmati setiap saat yg ade...

p/s: miss you very much! tak sabar nk dating...bila la...

kembali menulis

Salam kepada semua
Lega akhirnya dapat menulis kembali dalam bahse sendri
senang nk luahkan yg terbuku dihati
Maafkan tengku sbb tengku 'tgah tak btol' semenjak 2 menjak ne.
tp tengku tulis sikit la ye

tengku dapat rasakan yg ramai yg tak suke tengku. actually, tengku bukn tak biase sme nie tp mcmne ek tngku nk tulis..

tengku slalo rase yg org2 seme di luar sane mcm stereotype je.. "means" org melayu kene menjaga adap2 ketimuran mereka. salahke klu tengku ter'carut' skit? at least, tengku maseh hormat org len.

tengku pernah digelar 'lone ranger' dan tengku tak malu dgan gelaran itu. sbb dlu tengku pernah ade grup tengku sndri...tp mcm biase, sme ade tujuan masing2, kami pown dh x same2 dah..

tengku tahu, ade sifat2 tengku yg kene ubah, tengku sndri mencuba yg terbaik utk org2 sekeliling tengku. walau tak byak,tengku tahu, masih ade org yg memerlukan tengku. tengku akan berjuang demi org2 itu...

lots of love ~ tengku aziah

p/s: tiada ape yg merosakkan hati seseorg melainkan kate2 dr yg tersayang..

Thursday ~ nothing different

Salam to all my followers and readers. this week for me is like a HELL~ dunno whut suppose i thinkin this life. i got to face my life, friends and studies just in hard environment.

i know, this week many people noticed the changes in my attitude. i become more anger and unpatient. i juz cant find the reasons.

maybe bcoz of the mr. s simon that line up waitin me to serve them. meanwhile, my $$$ is getting melt at the bank. got many thing to buy (actually: foods) of coz la i need it ok~

1#this week began wit my lect that said im not efficient... wut? it juz bcoz we do other sbject's esaimen and he calls like that? we'd divide our task fairly enuf. and plz...dont said bout eficent ok? =.=

solution: met him and setle it. -done-

2#tuesday suddenly no water flow in our house. F#$K! why its happen? our neighbour downstairs have leaking in their house and need to repair it A.S.A.P. fine wit us but why it continues until the 3rd day??????? f.y.i no notice is give from the developer as they juz sealed our water utilities. >.<>

solution: alreadi told our house's agent but no fther action. (F#$K again) thanx to Miss T and Mr. F to brought me & fellow frenz to take our bath.

3#yesterday is my editrl mngemt test... i dont study, i dont hv water in my house, i'm sweating all over my parts, i cant concentrates and i'm hungry. tq for my neighbour for let me use thier toilet. i've to call my mummy (it such a ritual if i have test @ exam) i've told her my probs. she said "blaja peringkat tinggi memangla soalan2 tahap tinggi" ......she's right...i need to struggle...put all myself out juz for her... i want her to smile bcoz of me.. (lurve mummy)

solution: put some 'toyol' on the desk (but feelin guilty) erased back bfore my lect comes in. managed to deal wit my test earlier.. (dunno wut im scoring =.=')

4#after test my frenz n i went to Khulafa at sec7 by ride Kembara... (my dream car) the situation is quite cousy for me.. till.. i ask Ane for white rice (i dont want briyani okeh) he said 10 mnit...went back he said 5 minit...went back but i'd chged my mind to eat briyani then Ane said "tgah mop lantai, nnti dtg balik" i was like "!@###^@!$&#%*^&(($#%@$!#%$&@*!@$%~^&$#" ..... it stop there. i went to our tables and ask other Ane to order nan cheese.. he said "nan blom siap" actually he means "nan blom ada" again i !#$^$&& at myself. "bagi roti canai satu" fin........

solution: dont hv one... bodo nye Ane..

5#this is the best part.. my frend and i went to Delima and take our bath there after end up our class at 9++pm.. forget to mention, earlier we brought our toiletries in Miss T's car in case the drought in our house. excellent job for the awareness.. we went home and i take m seat in front of my lappy. to the point, i went to bed at 1130pm and woke up at 530am and here...i writing my new en3 while hearing 2pm's practices. (korean bband)

so....u guys can imagine wut happen in my life rite now.. let me call my week as SIAL's week. juz wrote it down bcoz i want to let go the harsh pain.

p/s: dis october is my "hari kebesaran" day.. dunno wut to expect from my ownself.

Busy with Mr. S Simon

Salam to all my readers

here, i would like to post ent3 about my biziness..

dis month is submitting Mr. S Simon and test2

dunno whut to post over here

there are no interesting topics happen in my life rite now

kinda bored

=.=

but ill catch up wit ur guys if i got spare time

ok?

till meet at my new en3

selamat hari raya

khazaijie kuaile

happy eid raya

p/s: xdpt raye dgan yg tersayang...